Monday, May 20, 2013

Sending Prayers




I had another plan for a post today, but it seems so trivial in light of the terrible events that are taking place in Oklahoma. My heart is heavy. I can not even imagine what those parents are going through right now.  So instead of sitting in front of my laptop, I am going to snuggle with my daughter and say prayers for those children who are not safe in their parent's arms.

Oklahoma, my thoughts and prayers are with you. I will light a candle and keep my own vigil for the safe return of your family members.

Nikki

Sunday, May 19, 2013

Regularly Scheduled Programming


Just checking in really quick to say HI!  I have been so busy with work this week and Joe and I photographed a wedding this weekend. I am hopping to return to somewhat regular blogging schedule this upcoming week!

Have a great rest of your day!

Nikki

Tuesday, May 14, 2013

The little things in life

Blog Every Day in May 
Day 14, Tuesday: Ten things that make you really happy

I really do try to take pleasure in the little things in life.  My family brings me the most joy and happiness, but there are a lot of little things that make each day great.


1. Being a mom! I know it sounds cliche, but my daughter makes me so happy, even when she is making me crazy :) She tells me I am her best friend and I just melt.

2. New shoes - really what girl does not like new shoes!

3. Cheese - I could live on cheese


4. Cooking 

5. Red wine - 
                 Red red wine you make me feel so fine
You keep me rocking all of the time  - UB 40

6. Hot Summer days
7. The smell of fresh cut grass - it takes me back to summer days as a child.

8. Daisies - they are just so perky!



9. A good book - especially anything that has to do with history




10. COFFEE!

This is just a handful of the things that make me happy!

Have a great rest of your day!

Nikki



Sunday, May 12, 2013

I Miss You


Day 12, Sunday: What do you miss? (a person, a thing, a place, a time of your life...)

I miss this lady everyday.



On Mother's Day 2009, my beloved grandma passed away from pancreatic cancer. 

My grandma was an amazing woman. She was from England. She met my Grandfather, an American GI, when he was stationed in England during WWII. My Grandfather was 14 years older than my Grandmother. They got married when he was on a 3 day leave and 9 months and 1 day later my mom was born. The war ended and my Grandfather went back to America. My Grandmother and Mom came to America 10 months later.

She was always such a strong and optimistic person. She would always say "this too shall pass," and "everything happens for a reason." She had such great stories about living through the war.

We talked everyday and she was my shopping buddy. 

I miss our Sunday morning coffee time at my parent's house. I miss sitting and having a nice cup of tea in the afternoon. I miss going to Chicago and shopping at Marshall Fields (Macy's now). I miss her accent and all he wonderful sayings. I just miss everything about her.

I found out I was pregnant with my daughter two days after she passed away (May 12, 2009 - 4 years ago today!). I wish she would have gotten to meet her great-granddaughter and share with her what she shared with me. 

Mother's Day is a very bittersweet day for me - I lost such an amazing woman in my life and started my much awaited journey to becoming a mother myself. 

So on this Mother's Day I celebrate, I celebrate the great woman my Grandmother was and still is to me and celebrate because I am blessed to have my own daughter. 

Happy Mother's Day!

Have a great rest of your day!
Nikki




Thursday, May 9, 2013

Quiet Moments

Blog Every Day in May 
Day 9, Thursday: A moment in your day (this can be just a photo or both a photo and words)



I took this photo today while I was taking a break from doing some design work.  I love just taking in moments like this, when she is playing by herself or just sitting and "reading" a book. 

Have a great rest of your day.

Nikki


Tuesday, May 7, 2013

Fear itself

Today is Day 7 of the Blog every single day in May.  I haven't been able to actually blog everyday, but I am trying to hit some of the key ones. Today's topic is - The thing(s) you're most afraid of.

I have anxiety & depression issues, which are the result of a medical condition I have (PCOS) and may or may not have anything to do with the fact that my mother and grandmother before me are complete and utter worriers. This leads to a lot of unwarranted worries & fears, I know. That being said, I think I am actually becoming slightly agoraphobic - I fear tight spaces, bridges and I am not good in large groups. 




Like most people though, my greatest fear is losing those that I love. Since having my daughter, this fear has grown exponentially. She is my everything. 

I found out I was pregnant with Gwen two days after my beloved Grandmother passed away. My husband & I had been trying to have a baby for over two years and had had two miscarriages, before Gwen (we also lost Gwen's twin). If I could, I would keep her with me every moment of every day.  I also know that that is a slightly unhealthy notion. 

Each day is blessing and I try to focus on that and not the what if's. The what if's can paralyze you and completely take the joy out of everything. Fear of the unknown is the worst. Your mind can come up with far worse scenarios than what the actually outcome could possibly be. 

So I guess what I am actually afraid of is fear itself. Fear can take hold of a completely rational person and make them completely irrational. Most days I try to be that rational person, but it is not always easy, especially being a Mom!


From this self professed worrier with irrational fears, be safe and enjoy the rest of your day!

Nikki



Monday, May 6, 2013

Weekend Recap

It was a fun and busy weekend. It started off friday with the arrival of the bracelet I won in the mail! I was waiting not so patiently for the mail man to arrive all day! (Am I the only one who still gets excited to get actual mail?)




Friday night we just relaxed. It was a long week for all three of us. Gwen fell asleep early and Joe and I did a Season Two of the Vampire Diaries marathon. I love Alaric. I miss him in season four. Only two more episodes left.  Can't wait to see how they leave it, knowing that the new spin off series, The Originals, got picked up for the fall.  Talking about fall pick ups, my guilty pleasure got picked up too - Hart of Dixie! I just love Levon and Wade! 


Saturday Joe worked and Gwen and cleaned house. I worked on a couple work projects and watched Roman Holiday. I love Gregory Peck and Audrey Hepburn. When Joe got home from work I ran out real quick to get my hair cut. My brother and his girlfriend came over and brought chinese! Gwen just loves them.  I think she would actually leave Joe and I for them, given the choice. Thankfully though, they wore her out and she crashed early! 

After Gwen fell asleep, Joe and I watched Death In Paradise.  It is an English mystery series on PBS, and we have become quite addicted to it! It may or may not have something to do with the fact that it set on a tropical island :) It was a nice quiet way to end the night.

Sunday we slept in, kind of. Well, Joe and Gwen did.  Why is it the mornings when you can sleep in, you can't! It was nice though, to have a little quiet time and catch up on some reading. When Joe got up we grabbed our coffee and sat out on our balcony. I am so enjoying the fact that weather is finally getting nice! Our vacation spoiled me :) We then popped some champagne and had mimosas and planned our day. 

We went to brunch at Coopers Hawk. I had a birthday coupon and needed to use it. We have never been there for brunch before and now I can't wait to go back! I had eggs benedict and Joe had their three little piggies! The hollandaise sauce was amazing! Each meal came with choice of mimosa, bellini or sparkling wine.  After we finished our delicious meals, they brought me out a birthday dessert with a white truffle, chocolate covered strawberry and fresh berries!! 


While we were there, we also picked up our wine of the month, which was Orange Muscat. I am not a sweet wine drinker, but this is good! It is very fruity and light.  It is a great balcony/patio drinking wine!

After filling our bellies, we went shopping to walk off some of those calories :) We hit Old Navy to use our Stuff & Save coupon and stock up on some summer outfits for all of us and jeans for gwen. I am not good at trying things on at the store, so unfortunately a few things are going back.  Then we went to Bed, Bath and Beyond to get some glasses for the summer (plastic - I break glasses all the time and don't trust myself with nice glasses outside).




I think I finally used all my birthday coupons and gift cards. My birthday has stretched on for over a month this year! Not that I am complaining :)

When we got home, Joe put on golf and I played with my new clothes. Gwen helped me purge her closet and hang up all her new clothes. Joe and I also organized our closet, which was much needed. All in all, it was a great weekend and I hated to see it end.

We are waiting on some news this week, so hopefully things go well! Trying to stay positive. Positive thoughts. Positive results!

Have a great rest of your day!

Nikki